il pianista

i have wanted to watch "the pianist" since it came out but just barely got the chance today. we've all seen movies about the holocaust. several. sometimes what becomes too familiar seems to lose its effect. movies about the holocaust though never lose their effect on me. i always give in and cry. it was so hard for me today to watch this movie. being far away from my family made it so. seeing families ripped apart from each other was terrible. i couldn't help but imagine being one of those hysterical women reaching for her sister or father as one of them are being pulled away.

then it makes me wonder, what makes me so blessed? why i am so blessed to live in the time and the place that i do? why did others have to suffer so greatly? yes, it makes me wonder. though it makes me sad, at least i have the chance to be reminded how selfish i can be. how much i forget how i have all of the things that i need and more.

recently i have had so many questions. so many began with why? but i am blessed to have a husband who reminds me that God is a just God and that He has a plan. things i already knew but sometimes i let all of the injustices of life get in the way.